Awareness 07/22/12

Learning to listen to those who came before me has not been easy, even from people out of the program. I spent so much of my life not being able to find it within myself to admit how screwed up my life had become. I’m talking about admitting it to someone who could actually help me. Admitting it to myself was easy. When you’ve come to in jail as many times as I have you know you have a problem. Today I listened to the word of some friends who know. I seen what they talked to me about, and it would have taken me longer to do something about without their experience, strength and hope. I also could have not corrected it just ended up stuck in the same rut again. Learning to be aware of where we start going wrong comes from being able to accept help from each other. Seeing what they see in us before we go astray from the program we are working. I have experience, strength and hope to pass on to others. Pride and ego can keep me from accepting it. Today if I expect to help others I have to be able to have something to give, and that comes from being teachable.

Jamie Mckinley

Born 11/07/1959 Quit school and on life November 1975. I returned to the living in 2009 after an attempted suicide and a trip to rehab. Got my GED in 2010 and started college two months later. I am on a journey to find out who I really and learn to give back of myself for the first time in many years. I'm going for a degree in social work and substance abuse. Today after many relapses I am finally finding what I need to be clean and sober and become a better person all through self discovery, the right people and thinking outside the box.

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