Trying To Quit? 06/25/12
Struggling to control how much you drink can seem like you are on an uphill climb. You can start the day intending to stick to one glass or wine or a bottle of beer, but before you know it you’ve downed the whole bottle or finished a six-pack.
Or perhaps you promise yourself that you’ll stay off the booze altogether for a while only to find that you’re heading for the nearest off-licence because of an argument with your spouse or a problem at work.
I’ve been there so many times myself in my drinking days. The battle going on in my head between craving a drink and not wanting to drink was like torture at times. No matter how much I tried the alcohol always won and I always ended up consuming much more than I meant to.
Although I wanted to quit or even to cut back on how much alcohol I was consuming, it seemed like nothing worked. I tried reducing the amount and changing the type of drink to a weaker strength. I put myself in situations where I couldn’t drink, such as offering to be the designated driver, but then ‘white knuckling’ through the whole event because I was craving desperately.
And concerned comments from friends and co-workers seemed to have the opposite effect because I felt so guilty and ashamed of what they knew and what they didn’t know about the extent of my alcoholism.
There were two main reasons that I had couldn’t control my alcohol consumption.
1. I didn’t realise that I had both a physical and psychological addiction to drink.
2. I was trying to quit by myself.
Despite the fact that drink nearly ended up killing me, deep down all I wanted to do was to be able to control my drinking and be ‘normal’. It was only when I could admit to myself and others that I needed help that I could start recovery.
Getting sober and staying sober takes perseverance. But if falling off the wagon isn’t failure as long as you want to get back on it again. Keep on trying!